May

I shouldn't get bored of the same day every day. How can every day be the same when the atmosphere is different? Still, when I was bored to the point of going crazy, I would eat out as if tomorrow were the weekend and deliberately stay up late. Sometimes that could be things like failing to choose a movie to watch or running on a course I've never taken before. I just want to feel okay with whatever I do. For the past few days, I've checked the library more than twice a day to see when the books I requested will be in stock. I ordered items for delivery and forgot about them; the day I went out without a bag was the happiest day. Roses were blooming profusely in every neighborhood. "You're lucky to be born at such a good time," someone told me. That was the first accurate congratulatory message I had ever heard in my life.